The Pianist Who
Keeps a Loaded Gun
on Her Piano When She Practices
The children know not to knock.
Double-sexed, I use both hands.
I tease seriously. The notes
tantalize, approach explosion,
fall back. It is the brink
that thrills when the high
walker sets her pink foot
on the rope.
The children know
I would shoot, but not at whom.
I am not certain I know myself,
only that this deep readying,
this fierce first step over
air, is worth dying for.